back for a reason...

finally got my connection activated gain
hmmm...
i dunno why i'm so emo now i dun really have da mood to blog

some idiots just for no other better things to do, do not have life, spammed my cbox...
thankfully there's people "chuthei" for me...
=D
thanx people...
you know who you are, i need not mention...

anyhow, sometimes i really dun understand life
it may be a beauty one time and hell the other
how can it be such a vast different in few days?

often question myself when i lie on my soft, lovely, best place on earth
*my bed*
wonder is everything made and done for a reason...
wonder why am i born in this dreadful [but at times beautiful] world
for being happy for just a speckle of moment and being hurt and heartbroken
for a long time

i searched for an answer, yet unable to get it
it really hurts when you cant really tell anyone how you feel..
the true feeling that lies within you
and this is so bothering
causing me facing depression day after day

can't things be normal again?
just because something that is not suppose to happen happened and things are all different now?
and that we wont be able to be bestfriends again?
to be close like we once used to?

and that things wont turned back to what it shud be again
why must it?

depression is really getting into me...
i.dunno.why
my mood is damn down these days that i barely able to find inspiration
)=
i need a talk to him
atleast i'll be able to settle that and move on
now i'm like a headless chicken
heading.to.no.where.

i can't fail this term.this sem
i muz scored as what people put hopes in me
high.hopes

anyway....sorry for this emo post...i really needed somewhere to rant
i do not want to trouble my dears to listen to all my sadness
every.single.time
sowee gurls...