Wednesday, June 13, 2007
projects...projects...PROJECTS!!!
and my blog is like uber dead..
i dunno why...its already collecting dust!
anyhow, i haven been having the enuff time to blog..
i have been like super duper uber busy with my assignments..
or rather projects mainly?but its the same...crazy busy...
haven been sleeping for the past 3 days...and i finally gotten my 4 hours of sleep the following nite..
and no!i dun see progress in my work...its like i have been doing so much and its still there...or more work is pouring in and its like deadlines are so very close...sigh
:(
i dun like!
but gotta confess something:
i'm back to ME...the old hardworking workaholic me...
only doing my projects and not getting bored..
besides getting myself not enuff restla..
i love the old me...the old crazy me who only prioritize my work instead of fun fun FUN!
and can you believe it!
i actually missed UVnation for my projects sake!
but i haven got a choice...
am enjoying the old lynnie..
and sadly, i haven been catching the gurls...the berries chiqs...
sorry gurls..
and i haven been calling my close friends..
.roz
.grace
.lisim
.josh san
i miss them!
but my work...sigh...
anyway, i got to get going...am blogging in the library now...just happened to have a lil free time as i got off the class urly!
bubye...
Thursday, June 7, 2007
the first topic i wanted to talk about after so long
yup yup!
have been slacking so much..
therefore no more slacking from now on
so, my schedule and plans?
go coll, do my project, do assignments, comehome, rest, exercise, sleep and projects and again assignments!
with that, i doubt i have time to go play...
i think i havta make some sacrifices
and the few i wanna do are:
-sacrifice my every flaming desire for shopping and shopping and more shopping*must control!*
-sacrifice all the chilling out and yam chaing session
-sacrifice my precious beauty sleep
-and the biggest one which made me feel so bad is...
sacrifice UVnation.and not going for it...stay home and do work!
(sorry amenda and catherine...i realy hope you both enjoy yourself there and do tell me about it ok?besides imkinda broke, therefore, i may not be able to make it)
-sacrifice blogging time...possibly blog 1 to 2 times a week ok?
-sacrifice movies sessions
sacrifice tv and procrastinating time!
thats bout it...
now gonna go have a good rest and waking up early to do my projects and other tasks...
nites and till the next post...
hmmm...
and i just realised that i changed alot through the times i started blogging
i changed in a sense.
as i was reviewing my older posts, i remembered tat
most of my post consist mainly of my studies and projects and bout my study life...nothing more except special happenings..
i used to post so much about my course, my class, my projects, my assignments, my classmates, my lecturers, my stress, my pimples and basically all bout my studies..
and as i review to the recent posts beginning from the preprom talent show post, i realised i haven been doing what i did last time-blogging on my course.my studies.
heck i blog practically about my life...my personal life which i suppose i haven the intention to do so last time.
i wonder have i really changed?
i begin to miss the hardworking lynn that she used to be before prom
the gurl who used to be really crazy and into her work that she gave a 150 % into it.
[it is proven by my bestie.]
but that was then.
the gurl who was so into her work that she barely have time for her beauty sleep.her family.her bestie.and herself.whats more chilling out time.
the gurl who was once so focus in her studies that she dont take any personal relation into consideration
and most importantly,
the lynn who was once a perfectionist that she wud even not pick up calls when she was doing her work.
i looked back my life and i realised i slacked so much!
am i still the gurl who seek perfection?
i know i still am...i hope so.
but what is pulling me back?
have i been too playful since prom happened?
i asked all these to myself...
and you know what i answered?
i think i am.
i think i slacked.which caused my results to drop.
i think i played too much that is why i lost concentration.
i think i gotten too soft that is why my focus was so low i had no mood to do my projects and assgns.
i think i forseen perfection. as for now i only want to finish my work and pass it up.
is all this a good change?
i dont think so.
therefore, i told myself i got to turn myself back to the old lynn
the one who used to be so focus and into achieving her big big dream
the one who do not take her life as her prior but her studies is
the one who seek perfection that may cause her to lose terrible hope when she falls oneday.
i miss the girl.i missed the old lynn. i missed the perfectionist!
so from this moment onwards, i promise myself to go back to who i am.
to the person i once enjoy being one.
to the li lynn who seek perfection that everyone was worried of her as she was a highly a perfectionist.*guez for me, being a perfectionist is not too bad after all, atleast it motivates me to continue pushing myself inorder everthing to be thoroughly perfect.*
to be the gurl who want to achieve her big dream to proove to all that they must not belittle her.
and from this moment onwards, i am the old li lynn...
the great old loong li-lynn.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
feeling weird i am now
he has to come for exams..
his final piece
after that i doubt any of us will be seeing him again
its really really awkward and weird seeing him again after such a long time
funny feeling tho of meeting him.
it like we sat just opposite each other*eventhough few tables apart* ...yet we did not even say hi..its like he didnt even notice me. maybe he was pretending, i do not know.
and when we finally decided to wave, atleast wave, we just smile and do so, [he smile.atleast]then i decided to just go to him and say something..something blessing for his paper in the eveningtherefore i really did...i really walk upfront to him...
then yea, weird and funny tho, i did not have much to say to him as i was really really nervous
its like i find it hard to get words outta my mouth so i can tell him stuff.
our conver was merely plain, very plain friend type*its like him and i are forced to talk* :
"hi!er...all the best ya for your paper later"
"thank you thank you!"
"sure can do de one you!"
"no problem...got this ma" [show notes in hand]
..conversation paused..(as him and i was stunted)
"er...i got to go to class...all d best again!bubye"
"ok ok..bye"
its funny that i once used to be so close to him that i am able to be so comfortable whenever he's around me, and now, i can feel so awkward and strange and far from him already
its like i do not know him at all.do not know him anymore..or probably just a mere plain normal normal friend where we just say hi and how are you and thats it!done.end.him and i will not have contact any longer.
then i was wondering was it really really a good thing?you know, of letting my feelings for him go?
have i really really moved on from him?
or am i just saying so just so that my friends will not be worrying of me day and night because of him?
i too am not able to answer these questions that i often questioned of his relationship with me.
i believe i did.i did move on from him.from YOU.
but am i thoroughly over him?
that i dunno and may not know and probably will not know.as he is still many a question i had in mind.
but i know that whatever it is, he will be forever remembered.and will have a place in my heart.my life.
NO!its not that i still holding onto him and never let go..
its that i never forget my X-es and they will always be remembered.and care of.*and yes, UR considered as one of my cherished X-es.even you had me feeling that my heart is no longer lovable.
but thanx to you, i learned many many things.
and if you are still reading my blog these days, i want you to know that im not mad or angry of you.not even a single bit.its funny tho. and i hope and still hope we, you and i will still be able to be friends that still keep in touch no matter where we are.where you'll be.
friends that care.share.talk.kidd.play with.friends of you and me
that you and me may still be friends like we used to before everything that happened.and i wish we may be friends for life! -to you i send this to-
all the best in everything and God bless!may everything run smoothly for you in the time to come!
thats bout it in this post...and you know wat readers?i just realised i had purple in every single line i wrote...wow!
till then...bubye!
Monday, May 7, 2007
the.masterpiece
-the masterpiece of mine-yes
i drew it and painted it...in less than a day
amazingly, it turned out pretty well, though it ain't that satisfying
but still i cant ask much for a few hours work
.a sleepless nite work.
all i can say is
can be better lorh...
i know i can do it so much better if i start just a lil more earlier
but anyhow its still alrite...not my 100% perfect work
but
i.adore.it.
as i put alot of feelings to paint it.
it represents the song *i'm your angel by celine dion and r.kelly*
the reason i chose this song's lyrics is because this song was the first that came into my mind when i was really really down...
when i was unable to stop myself from thinking of you
but yea, this song really sealed my heart
and yea, i didnt manage to catch my beauty sleep lastnite..
thanx to lilynn's difficulty to get inspiration and not having the mood to start
*haven been having mood these days...due to the same old reason...*
anyhow, my panda eyes are out...
and i wanna catch my beauty sleep d...
nitey nites
=)
p/s:btw, do tell me what you think of the pic yea...post me a comment k?..thanx!
=0)
Friday, April 20, 2007
.mood changes as fast as the weather.
or not i wudn't have the chance to do so...
one day i can be so thrilled and excited and all over the whole day
and another i can just be as down till the ground
been so dramatically down these days...
can never understand why
i seriously feel like tearing down, i really do
but somehow my tears aren't pouring out..
)=
many many things happened
again i question myself, is prom the main cause of all these?
sometimes i really really wanna blame prom for everything...
but is it wise?
anyhow, sem2 results are terrible...
and it really woke me up..woke me up from the joyous dreams i've been dreaming[that is filled with tears n laughters]
that sacrifices muz be made if you want to do something you mite think it's worth it!
for everything, there's a price needed to be pay.
damn emo today...dunno y...
*the results that are good enuff for ppl is not even an inch closer to the standard that i want*
Monday, December 18, 2006
chwistmas break...

Saturday, December 16, 2006
updates updates...
sowie ya..especially to jon..
i'll especially update my blog for your sake k?lol...
hmmm...
to make things short and simple...
practically my entire wik...was:
coasters + capsicum + english essay + critical studies assignment + printmaking + painting + coasters again + capsicum painting again + task 5 + projects + assignment = lynn's crazy and hectic schedule
hmmm...nothing much actually...
owh...will specifically talk bout my wikends lo..
saturday, i went out with mum to bangsar..
went to blook and cat whiskers..
bought a pur tey chwistmas dwess there..
pur tey rite?...heart it so muchie!!!
hopefully i'll be able to wait till chwistmas and wear it on dat special day...
it wud b betta if with someone special!
then bought a pants...
heart it so muchie!!
on sunday...mum and i went to o.u
bought a belt to match my dwess...*the one wrap around my dress in d pic?*
so happy..
hmmm...but o.u was not that satisfying...
cuz i didnt have enuff time to go shop for my heels, my turqoise eye shadow and my earrings...but still happie cuz mum bring mua to shopping!
thanx mummie dearest!
that's bout it la..soooo muz go shopping this wikend...
wanna oioi d...nites...
pur tey pur tey day!
hehe...
er..it's a really pwetty day...
i gave Mr kelvin, miss jinchi, miss ruby, miss catherine and miss michelle chwistmas pwessies...
they were surprised with me giving the chwistmas pwessies...
it's er...hand made chwistmas pendrive holder...
*pwobly they din expect lo*lol
so..yea...
giving during chwistmas is such a wonderful feeling..
love giving instead of receiving...but if got ppl give pwessie...ofcuz i heart also le...lol...
who dun love pwessies one?...especially those pwessies that come with surpwises...i lagi heart!
hmmm..
so yea...besides that, mr kelvin finalised my capsicum realism painting on canvas to be exhibited LONG TERM in kbu...
that's like yeay!!!
hehe
it's really a gud thing lo...
and also a gud thing mr. kelvin like my painting..hehe
so now if anyone go kbu...can c my painting...it's the only canvas with eight(cuz the kbu owner very into feng shui 1)capsicums that is painted in realism style...
therefore...it's very easy to know that that is mine lo...lol
so yea, besides that...
all of us...the fca20-ians...
all dressed in red and green with chwistmas hats...for photo sessions..
will post the pic up soon ya..
even miss jinchi and miss ruby wore something in common..hehe..
so took lotsa pics lo..
after coll, went to pyramid with most of my classmates to ber-iceskating...
quite fun...really cute and funny when you see ing hou, andy, wendy and steve in particular skate...so cute...wat's their theory?..er..wat 99% style but 1% skill...haha
hmm...came back bout 11 something...went yamcha with hsien wen nearby...
cudn't believe that i was so thirsty till i gulp down 3 cups of drinks...siaw rite?...
and and i learned some silly new words from ing hou and the grup...what "su wa ki to lou"?what's that?...er..er..
it's started off by them in their own meaning "so what"...lol..
hmmm...that's bout it lo..
so nice...enjoyed today alot...cuz it's a special and so fun day...hehe
Thursday, December 7, 2006
finally sick
ing hou beezee explaining stuff[in mandarin], me bz trying to figure what they talking.
me sampat sampat pose for camera, but ady act cool...=)
ing hou again..if i didnt understand wrongly, he was saying something bout his cup of coffee with the packs of sugar he used...er...
see d cute bear on d whiteboard?abang a'an the cute cartoon artist...*5 years back he drew my lil sis's carricature, n now i met him again...and he pwomise to draw mine when he's free*=0)
mr. padi[yeap, the beras-padi] another cartoon artist...also my grup's win,lose or draw leader *and we won!*..drawing shingyee's carricature...seriously, look so like her lo... that's basically my yesterday...quite cool la...
err...then bout today...hmmm...
finally getta see mr. kelvin again...he's been on mc for like few days due to diarrhoea(spelt liddat rite?) and yea, practically everyone is sick..sad case le..
then apart from that, yea, continue my realism drawing of my capsicum on the canvas...but did nothing much...not gud!...*will post the pic when i complete it k?*i got so bored and having low concentration...i took my t-shirt and draw my pig on it...so cute...hehe...another baby..
went see doc...on medication now...wanna go sleep but muz finish my english assignment first lo...
tah ppl...before i spread my "penyakit" to you..
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
almost dead...
alive?
er...hardly surviving...=(
gonna fall sick very soon..[having sore throat already]
and projects and assignments are piling up like a hill
BUT...finally manage to pass up the project one i'v been like...
err...working on for like 3 weeks?
great!less worries now...=0)
so sleepy...but am blogging..
can't wait for christmas break.....
can't wait go christmas shopping for pressiez for my love one(s) and friendz...
BUTTHEN again...christmas break also i mite still needta go back coll..
havta finish my coaster project thingy
........sigh...........
wanna oioi d
but doubt ill be able to cuz still got heaps of works to complete
hmm..today passed up project one...reached coll like 8.30am..
can't be late..
then when ady came, i surprise her with he "anak mumu" that i've made for her..
cute horh ady?..8)
looks like buy one rite?[owh...take the pic of the lil mumu and send to me aiks?]
now you can add "anak mumu" to your mumu collection...
BUT my anak oinkoink die d...so sad...*sniffsniff*sobsob*
muz make new one d..
ady, make me oinkoink hair band k?hehe...lol...
then nothing much lo...continue doing project two...coasters...tried simplifying but still so complicated...so sad...but i still love it!hehe...
wanna go take a lil nap now...then continue my project..
Monday, December 4, 2006
can't believe it!
i received this letter from miz jinchi..
then i was telling myself
damn!!!...am i in deep shit or what?...jinchi's face seemed so serious...
so walked up to her and she handed me the letter
as i read it...
my eyes cud probably be popping out!
i was shocked!
and surprised..
juz cant believe that what i was reading was true...
i got the teo soo ching scholarship...
gosh...after the interview i went...i was telling myself not to put so high hope in it..
wherelse he was telling me that he believes that ill be able to get it..
and he have always been putting high faith in me..
therefore the first person i informed bout this happy thingy was him...
~juz wanna say thanx for all the faith and hope you had in me..and believed in the ability of me..really appreciate it!thnx for standing by me,til now..hopefully you'll still stand by me always...~
and...my design for my coaster was er...well, as what the lecturers told me...it was a really creative and unique one but really complicated..good that i have the idea of that..
but but..d design didnt turned out if i use photo silk screen..how?
sigh..
i havta re-DO my task 4...so sad..sigh..
hmm..gonna be a sleepless nite again..
and OH...
i killed my anak babi that i created...
and i'm so sad...cuz i havta cancel her out of my collection..
[dun care muz make another new anak babi..]
bout before leaving...
look at me disecting the frog in form 5..
{wanted to disect the lil rat, but cried 3 times and din have the heart to do so, instead took it home as a pet=)}
this is what lilynn wanted to do...and she LOVE biology...and misses those times..if only she cud make her childhood dream occupation come true*to be a gynaecologist*...maybe someday..i believe in her...
gonna rush my project2 task4 now...
till nxt post..
been dayz...
then wanted so desperately to watch happy feet...Thursday, November 30, 2006
missing the chelsea-bolton match...=(
i was busy being VAIN drawing myself portraiture
and it took me like 9 hours in drawing myself
my first piece was a complete horrendouz piece...
totally NOT me
threw it away...and start a new piece..
started drawing at i tink 8 something nite...
but ended my drawing at 5 AM
and its still NOT satisfying...
and because of that, i can't watch the match!
thankfully to Michael Ballack, the match ended with a goal fr chelsea*phew*..
went coll late today...
had an appointment with the general surgeon
long story but shall cut it short..
erm..i had difficulty in breathing since laz friday
[its like i cudnt breath at all-like no oxygen at all]
and whatever i ate, all came back out..
therefore, i've been like on a liquid diet since laz friday
can't consume anything solid..sigh..
i SO cannot fall sick lo..
i've got loads of things to complete...
and if falling sick is a muz
then i definitely cant cope edi..
i MUZ b strong..
(gotta take care of myself d..)
hmmm...so yea, went college today[i'll never miz class especially mr. kelvin's]
*msged him early in the morning of my reasons not going coll in the morn*
and you know what?
he tot lilynn admitted hospital edi...lol
"hey...you ok? "
"er..yea..i tink so *smile* "
"you know, i tot you'll be admitting hospital this morn after whatever endoscopic test you gonna go for...i was so shock! "
"hehe...nola..wont admit hospital one lo...can't afford to waste those admittance time!got loads of work to complete..but yea...didnt manage to go for the test..doc say tmw..."
"ooo...i was actually telling your classmates, that if lilynn reli admitted to hospital one then i'll bring them all to visit you...*smily cheekily*"
"aww...really?sure not?...*smile*..so you gonna bring all of them with your little bumblebee(his mini kelisa)?...lol"
"i got my own ways one la...hehe..."
then he ask me to show him my portrait...
"so how's portrait going?"
"er...*shrugging*...er...[show portrait]"
"hmmm.......................WHO'S THAT?"
"....me la..who else...dun look like ar?"
"*hehe*...no lo...seriously...i mean lilynn..your eyes are too big and fierce looking...and your mouth's too small...doesn't look like you lo...your features not really on the correct scale la.. amend abit k?"
"...*sigh*...but but..i tried amending for 2 times edi..still 'tak jadi'.."
"lynn ar, you know laz time it took me 6 tries to actually get my own look correctly...so patience lo..lidat one lar.."
"ok...*lost hope face =( *"
"but lilynn...your features drawing that piece rite?...i like the ears..and your nose is cute.."
*touched nose*
"not your nose on the face...but the ones you draw..*laugh loudly*..but seriouslyla, your features drawing piece is the best piece in your class lo...the shadings...really beautiful...this will be an A piece lo..but your portrait...changechange abit k?...or not will pull down your marks lo...wasted only.."
"yea...wont edit...but gonna redraw...dun believe i can't get it looks like me..."
"good!i like that spirit...but remember dun forget you got alot of other projects and assignments ya...hehe"
=D
so much to do but so little time...
this weekend gonna be another tiring one...
gonna go oi oi now d...
sleepy..
slept so late laz nite but my work's not fruitful..sigh..
=0)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
monday...a blue BLUE one...
been so bz...hmmm
received a new project...sigh...
[project one also havent finish, now got project two]
hmmm..before i go on and on complaining bout my stressful life
yupyup...chelsea-manU match ended fairly..
1-1...
it was a marvelous goal by saha{i havta admit}
*seriously, i nv say dat saha's goal was not good k?
hmmm...they scored during the first half of the match...
causing me being shoot kaokao by friends and my mobile non-stop ringing[due to all d smses i received]
hah!chelsea scored in the second half match..
a not too bad goal by Ricardo carvalho..thnx!
haha...now they all din msg me edi..cuz they got nothing to say..lol..
hmmm...that's mainly bout it about the match...ended at 2.00 am and went to bed rite away!
next morning?
had 2 huge pimple on my face*hmmph*annoying-NESS
now back to my siaw life...
monday..
was really really sleepy
and new project came in
(i'm only like 1/4 done for my first project...how am i to finish now?)
sigh...and besides project...
i tink im gonna flunk my critical studies[art history] test today...
i was totally lost during it...dunno wat did i studied at all
was BLANK!!
looking at the questions trying to figure out, putting my best effort using my common sense in answering it...
...sobsob...
actually it all serves me right!
so smart la...knowing there's test tmw..and dun wanna study
but watch football..
[but i cant miz the match ma...n i dun wanna watch the repeat, i want live!]
nothing much lo...
muz really really study hard for the next test onwards...
laz sem i got an A for c.s and i can't degrade this sem lo...
Sunday, November 26, 2006
hmmmm...stress everyday!
craziness...sigh...
stealing some time to blog...
gotta get back to my project soon...=(
tonite's chelsea-manU match gonna b a tough one...
but i have strong faith with my Chelsea...
i know they can do it!
besides dun wan manU to win this match
they DAMN lansi wei...
especially wayne rooney and christiano ronaldo...
so dun like them both lor..
hmmm...praying hard*
hehe...
till next post..
bubyez...=0)
Friday, November 24, 2006
few more pix of my sem 1's work...
*self portraiture in pixel and mix media..


*my beer mug form for the poem project, 'a book of nonsense by edward lear'
*a view of the cover and half opened mug...*top view and a peek inside of my beer mug

..=0)*the words of the poem..
few pictures of my semester 1 work
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
projects, projects, more PROJECTS!!!
i was practically out the whole day after college..
went do lotsa stuff
and ended up going o.u at nite at 8 something
to catch the movie step up with my classmates...hehe..
movie ended at bout 12am lidat..
was really tired..
went home washed up and slept..
some unknown human beings..
being so free to call me at 1.06am
when i dun even know who are they..
so annoying!
hmmm..
continuation in doing my projects gain..
havta hand up some research on critical studies to miz michele...
wasnt too bad..
nothing much actually
juz projects
assignments
and more projects and exercises...
sigh...
so many to do but so little time...
beside...i'm like getting so broke in getting all the materials and stuff for projects..
wonder how am i gonna survive man!
shall leave that to think later..
now...going back to resume on my projects...
**tata**
Monday, November 20, 2006
stay FOCUS girl!
so dat i can have fun during the afternoon...
you can't imagine the time i woke up for a LAZY sunday lor...
6am...gosh!
project project
until i 'tak boleh tahan' edi
i climb back up my bed to steal some oi oi time...lol..
seriously..it's crazy man!
waking up so early on sunday morning when you slept so late d nite before [2.15am]..
actually is morning...early EARLY sunday morning...
hmmm...
well, art student..
what can you expect?
everything they do is unbelievable!=0)
so woke up again at 10.30am
continue with my project while hoping time wud pass faster..
cuz i'm gonna go watch STEP UP...
someone so nice agree to bring me go!
so happie!=D
went o.u to try get the tickets...
....*totally forgot that today was sunday...and sundays are fully pack rite?*
didn't manage to get the tix..
so sad...
both of us rushed to cineleisure hoping to get tix there...
thanxfully we manage to get two nice seats for the movie, the prestige...
sigh...it's not wat i wanted to watch today..
my main purpose is to go and watch my dance movie...step up..
sigh...
but
'takkan' go back rite?
so since i haven watch the prestige, it wasn't that bad of a choice also in the end...
the movie was not too bad...
juz too complicated for me..
didn't really understand lo
but it was k lar...
after movie...
i came back and continue to rush on my project...
i didn't really have time to slowly taste my dinner....sigh...
but yea..
i seriously got to focus...ALOT!
i muz not get myself involve with anything apart from my college stuffs...
juz not time yet..
i've BIG dreams to achieve!
oi oi now...=0*

