hmmm...

well, i have been running through my old posts in my blog...
and i just realised that i changed alot through the times i started blogging
i changed in a sense.
as i was reviewing my older posts, i remembered tat
most of my post consist mainly of my studies and projects and bout my study life...nothing more except special happenings..

i used to post so much about my course, my class, my projects, my assignments, my classmates, my lecturers, my stress, my pimples and basically all bout my studies..
and as i review to the recent posts beginning from the preprom talent show post, i realised i haven been doing what i did last time-blogging on my course.my studies.
heck i blog practically about my life...my personal life which i suppose i haven the intention to do so last time.
i wonder have i really changed?
i begin to miss the hardworking lynn that she used to be before prom
the gurl who used to be really crazy and into her work that she gave a 150 % into it.
[it is proven by my bestie.]
but that was then.
the gurl who was so into her work that she barely have time for her beauty sleep.her family.her bestie.and herself.whats more chilling out time.
the gurl who was once so focus in her studies that she dont take any personal relation into consideration
and most importantly,
the lynn who was once a perfectionist that she wud even not pick up calls when she was doing her work.

i looked back my life and i realised i slacked so much!

am i still the gurl who seek perfection?
i know i still am...i hope so.
but what is pulling me back?
have i been too playful since prom happened?
i asked all these to myself...
and you know what i answered?
i think i am.
i think i slacked.which caused my results to drop.
i think i played too much that is why i lost concentration.
i think i gotten too soft that is why my focus was so low i had no mood to do my projects and assgns.
i think i forseen perfection. as for now i only want to finish my work and pass it up.

is all this a good change?
i dont think so.
therefore, i told myself i got to turn myself back to the old lynn
the one who used to be so focus and into achieving her big big dream
the one who do not take her life as her prior but her studies is
the one who seek perfection that may cause her to lose terrible hope when she falls oneday.

i miss the girl.i missed the old lynn. i missed the perfectionist!

so from this moment onwards, i promise myself to go back to who i am.
to the person i once enjoy being one.
to the li lynn who seek perfection that everyone was worried of her as she was a highly a perfectionist.*guez for me, being a perfectionist is not too bad after all, atleast it motivates me to continue pushing myself inorder everthing to be thoroughly perfect.*
to be the gurl who want to achieve her big dream to proove to all that they must not belittle her.
and from this moment onwards, i am the old li lynn...

the great old loong li-lynn.