i suppose to be strong, yet...i feel lost and alone

today i suppose to be strong...start anew, but i dunno why, something felt wrong..
i tried so hard so long to be strong again, to stand up, to be the old lynnie
still something is missing
and missing is the word that enpowered me now.

sometimes i feel stupid of being in the position of not being able to spill out and have to keep myself going strong.
strong infront of my family, infront of my friends.
yet sometimes i cannot stop the feelings to surface upon me.

its one day already...
one day passed from yesterday..
"and from yesterday onwards everything will change...
change to be a better one.."
-i told myself that day and nite
in reality and in my dream...

it may be tough for me to endure all this but i know, things will change to be a better..i believe
with the support of my family and friends, i know and i will be able to do so..

all i can do now is have the determination to forget and move on with my busy life..
and pray...pray for everything to be better tomorrow.

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other than that, work still need to be continue
projects are overflowing..

today we receive new brief for our drawing project..
=(

went one utama today to do some photo taking for the project..
and now feeling terribly tired...gonna oi oi now..
that's all..