*it really matters alot, who say it doesn't?

it's only a few more hours away before this lady over here finally turning 21!

as excited i am to see it coming,i at the same time is feeling somehow depressed over it(emo-ness of me just oftenly take place at this time however.)

well, let's see it with the bigger picture tho, being 21 isn't that bad after all. or does it actually makes a different now?

especially when things for me has always been one step advance eversince.

this year, everything will be really different for me. very new infact.
back home, the normal thing that happened every year, friends been making plans for me a week in advance and on the exact day i'll be jam-packed with plans, then after, another week of celebration tho it'll be belated then.
but this year, no one actually acknowledged the fact that my birthday is approaching, since i've been in a new place, no plans in advance other than flying, and on the eve(which means today) i even hasn't receive a call from anyone for a decent dinner at least let alone bigger plans!

having seeing friends all over celebrating their 21st with super interesting plans and such, i on the other hand will eventually and most probably be celebrating it alone.

well, being a far from loved ones back home has made me becoming stronger and more mature than the usual self.
this year, i somehow felt that i do not need people to lavish and pamper me with gifts but i would very much love to have least spend this special 21st with the people whom i love and who love me all along.
i feel that, it is not the gifts and the surprises and the presents people have for you, but the love and care and the time willing to be showered upon is the most vital thing to note for memories and to make it THE day.

every year, i always have the 'what-i-would-love-to-have' birthday pressies list.
but this year, i can't think of any surprisingly,
when my friends ask me, "what would you love to have for your 21st?"
this time round, i couldn't figure out what i would really really want.
things i want at this moment which would be really useful to me, i know people ain't able to get 'em because it is definitely out of their budget.
well, at the end of it, i felt that if you would really get me something, get 'em with your heart sincerely and at the same point you know it'll be practical when i receive it.
it doesn't need to be expensive, but least i know whatever it is, it's your thought that matters at the very end.

today, after touching down from my Perth flight, to my surprise all e crew gather and wished me, along with a birthday card filled with best wishes.
the pilots(tech crew) on the other hand made an announcement over the PA system over it.
at times, you never know who will be the ones who does such sweet things. it may not be something you go wooo-waainng but it is definitely something you will remember for life.

went back home after my Dubai-Istanbul flight.
friends take initiative to make the effort to meet up just to have dinner to celebrate my birthday in advance.
some even make the effort to come all the way to just pass me the present even knowing that i'm not at home.(you know who you are)
some make the effort to do a last minute dinner thing even knowing the time spent will only be just awhile.

*names need not be mentioned as ya'll know who you are and what you've done.

these lil' things ya'll done has touched my heart successfully to make me felt special, loved and cared for.
thank you. that's all i need to say, for making it happen.
truly appreciate it.

~let's cross fingers and pray hard that either 21st or 23rd January everything will go according to planned.
my wish from you.