feeling weird i am now

yesterday i saw him at college..
he has to come for exams..
his final piece
after that i doubt any of us will be seeing him again

its really really awkward and weird seeing him again after such a long time
funny feeling tho of meeting him.

it like we sat just opposite each other*eventhough few tables apart* ...yet we did not even say hi..its like he didnt even notice me. maybe he was pretending, i do not know.

and when we finally decided to wave, atleast wave, we just smile and do so, [he smile.atleast]then i decided to just go to him and say something..something blessing for his paper in the eveningtherefore i really did...i really walk upfront to him...
then yea, weird and funny tho, i did not have much to say to him as i was really really nervous
its like i find it hard to get words outta my mouth so i can tell him stuff.
our conver was merely plain, very plain friend type*its like him and i are forced to talk* :

"hi!er...all the best ya for your paper later"
"thank you thank you!"
"sure can do de one you!"
"no problem...got this ma" [show notes in hand]
..conversation paused..(as him and i was stunted)
"er...i got to go to class...all d best again!bubye"
"ok ok..bye"

its funny that i once used to be so close to him that i am able to be so comfortable whenever he's around me, and now, i can feel so awkward and strange and far from him already
its like i do not know him at all.do not know him anymore..or probably just a mere plain normal normal friend where we just say hi and how are you and thats it!done.end.him and i will not have contact any longer.
then i was wondering was it really really a good thing?you know, of letting my feelings for him go?
have i really really moved on from him?
or am i just saying so just so that my friends will not be worrying of me day and night because of him?
i too am not able to answer these questions that i often questioned of his relationship with me.
i believe i did.i did move on from him.from YOU.
but am i thoroughly over him?
that i dunno and may not know and probably will not know.as he is still many a question i had in mind.
but i know that whatever it is, he will be forever remembered.and will have a place in my heart.my life.
NO!its not that i still holding onto him and never let go..
its that i never forget my X-es and they will always be remembered.and care of.*and yes, UR considered as one of my cherished X-es.even you had me feeling that my heart is no longer lovable.

but thanx to you, i learned many many things.
and if you are still reading my blog these days, i want you to know that im not mad or angry of you.not even a single bit.its funny tho. and i hope and still hope we, you and i will still be able to be friends that still keep in touch no matter where we are.where you'll be.
friends that care.share.talk.kidd.play with.friends of you and me
that you and me may still be friends like we used to before everything that happened.and i wish we may be friends for life! -to you i send this to-

all the best in everything and God bless!may everything run smoothly for you in the time to come!

thats bout it in this post...and you know wat readers?i just realised i had purple in every single line i wrote...wow!

till then...bubye!